I’ve realized that the place I felt God the most is where I felt lack of judgement. I believe love transforms way easier than religion. Love confronts issues not because they’re wrong, but because they’re killing you. Jesus came to give us life and life more abundantly.
For some reason I have watched this video like 5 times. I’ve put off posting about it because I’m not necessarily sure why it’s been so powerful for me. And I’m not sure if I’ve come to any type of conclusion, but maybe I think it puts language to things I’ve prayed, or questioned, or wrestled with. And if you know me at all you know I thrive off of feeling understood (as most do), so I probably love it because I can relate to some of her process. And also I just love interviews, so obviously I loved it.
And I remember being curled up in the fetal position in my bedroom, and… losing hope is probably the worst feeling I’ve ever felt in my life. And it pointed to the fact that there was a death that was like, outside of the physical body death, that like, something inside of you was dying as I was giving up hope…I think probably everyone on earth is afraid of being overtaken by something dark. I needed to come face to face with the light.
I had a really great conversation with a friend last week about hope, and how important it is, and how we hold onto it, but also how we find it after losing it again. Those times where you can’t seem to place it can be some of the darkest times. If you find yourself there, I’d love to sit with you and hear your story and support you.
If you’re interested in hearing more about what was birthed out of her story, check out her latest album, Where His Light Was.